Sorry about the reeducation my dear readers…..

Dear readers this is a long post, it was done for the purpose of re-education for certain people. I want to apologize to my readers for the repetitive nature of this post.

I guess I am going to have to reeducate people on my mental issues and I really hate to have to do that because I have tried my damnedest to educate people on my mental issues, but I am guessing that once again I will have to educate them again.

Here is the first website:

And now for the explanation: Dissociative identity disorder (previously known as multiple personality disorder) is an effect of severe trauma during early childhood, usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, or emotional abuse. This according to WebMD.

Now for NAMI explanation and website:

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), previously referred to as multiple personality disorder (MPD), is a dissociative disorder involving a disturbance of identity in which two or more separate and distinct personality states (or identities) control the individual’s behavior at different times. When under the control of one identity, the person is usually unable to remember some of the events that occurred while other personalities were in control. The different identities, referred to as alters, may exhibit differences in speech, mannerisms, attitudes, thoughts, and gender orientation. The alters may even differ in “physical” properties such as allergies, right-or-left handedness, or the need for eyeglass prescriptions. These differences between alters are often quite striking.

Now we will talk about some myths about DID:

Most of us have days when we don’t feel like ourselves. Some of us have moments, sometimes more than moments, when we feel disconnected from our surroundings, our actions, ourselves. We’ve arrived at work with no clear recollection of the drive from home. Taken to its most extreme level, that’s what dissociative identity disorder (DID) feels like all the time. DID is an extreme form of mental illness. Characterized by two or more separate personalities in one person, it’s the disease portrayed in “The Three Faces of Eve,” “Sybil,” and more recently “The United States of Tara,” and it’s a controversial diagnosis. Some doctors believe it occurs somewhat commonly in certain types of trauma survivors; others believe it’s extremely rare, to the point of almost never occurring; and some don’t believe it exists at all. What’s sure is that mental illness in general is far from rare. It can result from genetics, biology, environmental factors and/or some combination thereof. The World Health Organization estimates that 400 million people around the globe suffer from some type of mental-health problem. Compared with issues like depression, anxiety, addiction and obsessive compulsive disorder, dissociative identity disorder is a rare diagnosis, but it’s out there. According to MedicineNet, 3 percent of institutionalized mental patients suffer from the condition. This potentially debilitating disorder is one of the most misunderstood of all mental illnesses. Here, we’ll look into some of the more common misconceptions about multiple personalities and find out the truth about the disease.

Lots of people confuse dissociative identity disorder with schizophrenia. They’re actually two very different disorders. Schizophrenics do not have multiple personalities at all. They have, in general, confusion about what is real and what is imagined. In schizophrenia, delusions are common. Delusions are beliefs or thoughts that are not based on anything real or justified. A “paranoid schizophrenic” may suffer from delusions of persecution, for instance. Some sufferers also hallucinate — they see or hear things that aren’t really there. There are, however, a few common threads between dissociative identity disorder and schizophrenia. Both may hear voices in their heads, and may withdraw from social interaction. Both are often accompanied by other mental illnesses, like depression or addiction. And both disorders carry an increased risk of suicide. Lots of people are skeptical of “multiple personalities,” but there’s actually good physical evidence suggesting the disorder is real. Studies have found that “alters” (secondary personalities) have different heart rates and blood pressures than the main personality. Other dissociative disorders are widely accepted as real, including dissociative fugue, dissociative amnesia and depersonalization disorder. DID is the most extreme form of dissociation. Diagnosing it is difficult. People suffering from DID typically spend years in the mental health system before anyone considers they might have alters. There are some diagnostic criteria, though, that can help identify people as suffering from dissociative identities, including “lost time,” frequent and extensive memory lapses, and often being accused of lying when they sincerely believe they are telling the truth. And of course, they have at least two separate personalities — often with different names, appearances, mannerisms and attitudes — that control behavior, thought and perception at different times. The primary personality is typically unaware of the presence of alters. Many experts believe that people suffering from DID are genuinely ill. That doesn’t mean, however, that no one is faking it. People accused of crimes and those suffering from Munchausen’s syndrome have been found to pretend to have “alters” in order to escape jail or get attention, respectively.

Media representations of dissociative identity disorder evoke images of severe disturbance: alter Eve Black trying to kill primary Eve White’s daughter, or Sybil walking away from her students and into a river, fully dressed. The 1953 movie “The Three Faces of Eve” was based on the real life of Chris Sizemore, and “Sybil” (1976) ostensibly told the story of Shirley Mason — but like most media images, these portrayals are only partly true, dramatized for effect. Dissociative personality disorder can lead to extreme behavior, but it is seldom so outwardly stunning. Symptoms associated with DID include profound memory loss and confusion, hearing voices, substance abuse, compulsive behavior, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts and actions, insomnia and depression. Most people who suffer from the illness had previously been diagnosed with one or more different disorders, and they go years, perhaps decades, before discovering they have alternate personalities.

No one knows what causes dissociative identity disorder. All signs point to extraordinary trauma, particularly during childhood. Some people object to that causation, though, because lots of children who go through traumatic experiences never develop multiple personalities. On the other hand, not all smokers develop lung cancer. Childhood trauma, particularly repetitive trauma like physical or sexual abuse, is a notable common thread in a majority of DID cases. According to WebMD, at least 98 percent of people diagnosed with DID experienced extreme, possibly life-threatening ordeals. The hypothesis is that sometimes, these experiences can simply be too much for a child to integrate into conscious experience. The child’s brain, as a coping mechanism, essentially “turns off” the conscious identity and creates alternate personalities to experience the pain. It’s possible that some minds are stronger than others, more capable of coping consciously with extreme trauma, so not all children in those situations develop split personalities. Most mental illnesses are treatable, and dissociative identity disorder is no different. The disorder can’t be cured, but it can definitely be managed. It can take a long time, perhaps many years, and requires an intense commitment to treatment on the part of the patient, but it is entirely possible for someone suffering from DID to lead a normal, fulfilling life. Recovering from dissociative identity disorder involves seeking treatment with a mental health professional like a psychiatrist, psychologist or clinical social worker. Treatment methods vary, and may include psychotherapy (“talk therapy”), medication (typically for accompanying conditions like depression or anxiety) and hypnotherapy. Some experts have found that alternate personalities may respond to the therapist under hypnosis, which allows not only the therapist but also the primary identity to gain information about the alters and what they have experienced. One aspect of treatment that has changed in the last decade is the ultimate goal regarding the alters. Once, therapist sought to integrate them into the primary personality. They found, though, that this could trigger a survival response — that the other personalities felt the therapists was trying to eliminate them. Now, the goal is to facilitate a more peaceful coexistence between each of the alters and the main identity.

Now I will finish this with another website and explanation:

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is a severe condition in which two or more distinct identities, or personality states, are present in—and alternately take control of—an individual. The person also experiences memory loss that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness. DID is a disorder characterized by identity fragmentation rather than a proliferation of separate personalities. The disturbance is not due to the direct psychological effects of a substance or of a general medical condition, yet as this once rarely reported disorder has become more common, the diagnosis has become controversial. Some believe that because DID patients are easily hypnotized, their symptoms are iatrogenic, that is, they have arisen in response to therapists’ suggestions. Brain imaging studies, however, have corroborated identity transitions in some patients. DID was called Multiple Personality Disorder until 1994, when the name was changed to reflect a better understanding of the condition—namely, that it is characterized by a fragmentation, or splintering, of identity rather than by a proliferation, or growth, of separate identities. DID reflects a failure to integrate various aspects of identity, memory and consciousness in a single multidimensional self. Usually, a primary identity carries the individual’s given name and is passive, dependent, guilty and depressed. When in control, each personality state, or alter, may be experienced as if it has a distinct history, self-image and identity. The alters’ characteristics—including name, reported age and gender, vocabulary, general knowledge, and predominant mood—contrast with those of the primary identity. Certain circumstances or stressors can cause a particular alter to emerge. The various identities may deny knowledge of one another, be critical of one another or appear to be in open conflict.

Now if you really want to know about this part of my mental issues I will give you the name of the person I learned the most about it from, you can google Holly Gray and visit her various blogs and sites and learn firsthand what this is about.

Now for PTSD, which is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder:

Post-traumatic stress disorder is a type of anxiety disorder. It can occur after you’ve seen or experienced a traumatic event that involved the threat of injury or death.

Causes, incidence, and risk factors

PTSD can occur at any age. It can follow a natural disaster such as a flood or fire, or events such as:

  • Assault
  • Domestic abuse
  • Prison stay
  • Rape
  • Terrorism
  • War

For example, the terrorist attacks of September 11, 2001 may have caused PTSD in some people who were involved, in people who saw the disaster, and in people who lost relatives and friends. Veterans returning home from a war often have PTSD. The cause of PTSD is unknown. Psychological, genetic, physical, and social factors are involved. PTSD changes the body’s response to stress. It affects the stress hormones and chemicals that carry information between the nerves (neurotransmitters). It is not known why traumatic events cause PTSD in some people but not others. Having a history of trauma may increase your risk for getting PTSD after a recent traumatic event.


Symptoms of PTSD fall into three main categories:

1. “Reliving” the event, which disturbs day-to-day activity

  • Flashback episodes, where the event seems to be happening again and again
  • Repeated upsetting memories of the event
  • Repeated nightmares of the event
  • Strong, uncomfortable reactions to situations that remind you of the event

2. Avoidance

  • Emotional “numbing,” or feeling as though you don’t care about anything
  • Feeling detached
  • Being unable to remember important aspects of the trauma
  • Having a lack of interest in normal activities
  • Showing less of your moods
  • Avoiding places, people, or thoughts that remind you of the event
  • Feeling like you have no future

3. Arousal

  • Difficulty concentrating
  • Startling easily
  • Having an exaggerated response to things that startle you
  • Feeling more aware (hypervigilance)
  • Feeling irritable or having outbursts of anger
  • Having trouble falling or staying asleep

You might feel guilt about the event (including “survivor guilt”). You might also have some of the following symptoms, which are typical of anxiety, stress, and tension:

  • Agitation or excitability
  • Dizziness
  • Fainting
  • Feeling your heart beat in your chest
  • Headache

This should explain it very well. I am not going to go into the depression or into the anxiety that I have, I am thinking this is more than enough information once again for any simple minded asshole to understand. If you just take into consideration the two above issues then you might just remember or know what I am dealing with.

With much love and gratitude,

Dan Kline


11 Responses to “Sorry about the reeducation my dear readers…..”

  1. I just want to say that I am sorry. I didn’t really understand anything until reading this post. I hope you begin to write again. For some, reason I felt the need to read your blog. You are a wonderful person and a wonderful writer. I now know I have no business following what I am doing. I need to pursue something else, but what? I am not gifted in any sense of the word. I love you with every thread of my being. Stay strong. I hope my email gave you a little understanding about me. I know your blog has helped me. Again I am sorry, please forgive me. I am an idiot. I didn’t know that so much affected you. I am sorry about Gerri. I understand why Dylan has hope. Until Saturday, my love.


      • What is the ppurpose in reading your blog now? We are no longer together.

      • The purpose is not only understanding but perhaps to express your own feelings, not necessarily about me but your own frustrations. I found that this medium and the people here are very helpful, supportive and just plain understand.

    • I understand my own feelings. I amdoing perfectly fine at expressing my own feelings and frustrations. I forgive easily, but can not forget because it is a learning experience. I still love you and always will. I am just sorry that you did not educate me enough in the beginning in order for me to understand all of your struggles to keep from your previous path to reappear.

      Hatred is an emotion that fuels anger. I know you hate many people, although they may not have the same values or outlooks you do, you must forgive to let go of the anger that consumes us all.

      The is always two sides to every, i mean every story. You must hear, not listen to both sidesof the story to find the truth that lies somewhere in the middle.

      I do not fear life, i have had many things done to me throughout my lifetime as you know some of them. It takes a whileto get to really know me. I fear you barely know me. If something or someone would cause my death i have layed it out so that my children will have the emotional and financial support to see them grow into prosering adults.

      Yes, my son is 19 and he is classified as an adult, but he still thinks of himself first, as a child would. That is the way of todays world. My son could have died in a car accident, lost to me forever after all the death i had last year alone. He is and never will be on drugs, he is high on life. He directs his own life. The only thing i can do is show him by example of the right way and hope he learns. You would know that if you knew him.

      I wish you only the best and hope you come to terms with your past enough to to into the future. I love you enough to set you free. It will hurt me to see you with another, but i more than anything want you to be happy.

      Being the bitch that i am, i know i will never be happy. I have lost you my soul mate.

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  3. Dan you don’t need to defend yourself. This is YOUR site. As soon as you see something that looks critical don’t finish reading it, delete it!

    Protect your brain. You can’t allow yourself to be re-traumatized. You may not be able to do much healing with all that your going through right now, but you need to do that much.

    Hang in there. It gets better.

    • I have blocked emails, phone numbers and even deleted my facebook page and the bitch part about this is the person doing it went through the entire process with me….. Now because if the pain and trauma of losing someone that meant so much to me and the fact that they are seeing another and now using my disabilities against me to make me look like a very bad person, father and former husband. I am a ship lost at sea and right now i am me but wait 5 minutes and i might not be. She knows, she read and researched as much as i did, so i am trying to distance myself as much as possible. it just hurts so much to have that support and now for her to turn to turn it all around against me, I guess she didnt love me as much as I loved her.

      • I have watched it play out here and I have been horrified for you and honestly worried that you would follow Sara’s route. I am happy every day that I sign on and see any posting from you…no matter how angry you sound just because of that. Find peace my friend.

      • i have said it several times i liken my daily struggle as addiction and like an addict everyday i make the choice whether to live or die, today i choose to live…..

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