Archive for April, 2013

A conversation to me…..

Posted in Alters, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, DID, PTSD, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on April 5, 2013 by dankline2000

I have looked into my own eyes and I see different things, I still see me but in a different way the changes are subtle, they are of knowing, knowing who I am as a man, knowing how I want to be treated as a man, knowing that I am not the man I once was, insecure, fearful and angry. I am no longer that fellow, yes I am still afraid but not of what was, I have grown to understand that I do not hold the past, present nor future, I have no control over any of those events. I have belief that what will come will come and if not then I am not the one to lose, I will gain from that, I will gain knowledge and understanding of myself, of what more needs to be different of myself. I do not want you to reply to this not because it may not help but for me to tell you of me as I am, I am old, broken, hard and changed, I am not sure if it is for the better or not but this is away for me to talk not only to you but myself. I can only expect people to take me as I am, if they dont then they dont. Hurt is no longer a part of my life anymore not for myself nor for those I love. Take me as I am or leave me entirely it is not being mean or nasty but an understanding that must be met. I ask little from those I care for but to only care for me, I ask only that the respect shown to those I care for be returned, I dont lie to those I care for and fully expect that in return. If thought about most would agree that they only wish to be treated the same way. Once again I do not want a reply just for this to be read and understood.

With much love and gratitude,

Dan Kline